Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Missing Out

Every day I feel like I put down to bed one kid and get a whole different one the next day after work.  I'm missing out on so much and it makes me real angry.  Every day I'm told of the new things he says and does and tries and I don't get to experience them.  He is like a one hit wonder, he'll say something or do something once and then you won't hear or see it again for a long time.  And what's worse is that I can't even say it's all for a better future.  I'm at a crappy job earning less than most high school drop outs.

I look at this little person, A PERSON, and I don't recognise him.  I had a baby, I strapped in a baby into that car seat not too long ago.  Where did this little person come from?  Who is this?  I don't even recognise him anymore.  He does things and says things that are totally strange to me, completely unlike who I had with me before.  He is practically a stranger sometimes, at that really saddens me.

This really bites, and I am unhappy.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Potty Training - Week 11

Days 71-77

9/6-9/12

I may be getting ahead of myself, but I think we have achieved day time potty training.  It took 11 weeks but he is now consistently telling me when he needs to go before he goes and we had only one accident this week (half a block away from home) so I think we've got this.  He has even told me he had to poop and pooped in the 'the big potty.'  I think a little celebration is due!

I am not naïve, I know we may face some regression and accidents will continue, but I refuse to let that burden our accomplishments.  Right now, at this moment, we have done well.  He has mastered this skill and I am proud.

Night time potty training is another obstacle.  He does wake up most days dry but still has days where he wakes up with a wet diaper.  I am not stressing this right now.  I do try to get him to pee before he goes to bed but we still have times when I find him sleeping on the couch or I simply send him to bed because he's being cranky.  All in time.  I am proud of what has been accomplished nonetheless.

I will now stop the weekly potty training updates.  The last couple of entries have been difficult since I have no time and there is very little to report.  The final hurdle was pending for a while and now we have passed it.  I will now only post a potty training post when there is something of note to post.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

The Attack

Today I was attacked, scratched in my face, neck, arms, and hands.  I was attacked by Nicholas.

A tantrum over not getting his way turned really violent turning our visit to The Happiest Place On Earth into a scary ordeal.

It started during the flag retreat ceremony.  We do this ever time we go, it's something I feel we need to do and it is by far not the first time we do it.  He accidentally lost his soothie during the ceremony and it rolled in front of the conductor.  It wasn't even in his mouth, he had it in his hand, and he wanted to go get it.  I told him he had to wait and he was not happy with that.  He started throwing a tantrum over it but I stood firm that he had to wait.  It would have been easy to just let him go get it but they're paranoid there with their performers and I know having him approach the conductor was going to cause issues with them, even if for the briefest moment.  And really, he could wait.  It was almost over.  Patience, right?  So I told him that if he did not calm down and wait he would not get to go play on the firetruck like he wanted to.  He did not calm so when it was over and he had his soothie I told him we were not going to play on the fire truck and we were going home.  All hell broke loose.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Potty Training - Week 10

Days 64-70

8/30-9/5

This has not been the best of weeks and I need to focus on the accomplishments: he is now telling me when he needs to go to the bathroom... sorta.

He does it most of the time which makes those times when he does not very frustrating.  I have tried to figure out what it is that makes him not tell me.  At first I thought it was because I was in the bedroom but then he did ask while I was in there.  Then I thought it was because he needed to poop and it was different.  But then he did tell me he had to poop.  I thought it had to do with him playing or watching a movie, but then he did stop playing to tell me and go and he did tell me in the middle of a favourite movie.  Every accident has been a poop accident but then he also does tell me in time so I am very confused.  I want to know why he won't tell me so that I can fix it.  These accidents are bad in that he ends up trying to clean himself and makes a horrific mess in the bathroom.  I just don't get why he won't tell me sometimes.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Potty Training - Week 9

Days 57-63

8/23-8/29

This week was the first full week we used the new toilet/potty thing.  It works, when it gets used.  He still won't tell me though my sister says he tells her so there have been accidents.  Lots.  *sigh*

Ok, so lets talk about this contraption.  It is called Mommy's Helper - Padded Potty Seat with Step Stool.  I got it from Walmart.com and got shipped for free to the store that is a few minutes from where I live.  Assembling it was quite easy but you do need to pay attention and follow the very simple instructions.  Then it was time to put it on the toilet.